I about cried with relief

About a month ago I got the dreaded phone call from the doctor, abnormal cells... further tests.... ASAP....Kolposcopy. I have had regualar paps since I was about 17, never had any problems, never anything abnormal. So fear sunk in immediately, Everything from death to infertility to cancer crossed my mind in about 2 minutes, and continued to cross my mind for a few days afterward. In those few days I couldn't stop thinking about it, being abnormal, feeling abnormal, and living with abnormality. It was all I could think about for a few days, depression and guilt reigned over my mind, until finally I realized that I couldn't let this control me. I have a wonderful family, an amazing boyfriend, a great life, a future that I have worked so hard for and finally have it within my reach. I couldn't afford to allow this to takde me over , not now. So I made the appointment, after a ton of hassel with the insurence companies. It was today and guess what they didn't see anything that they were worried about!!!! They didn't even take biopsies!!! The final results should be in in about a week, but I left there relieved, and extrememly positive that everything is going to be alright. And even if something does come back bad, God has blessed me with so much, that I accept his challenge. Thank you everyone who has been so supportive, I love you all!!!