Ready or not here it comes

Remember when we were little and Mom use to take the first day of school pictures to keep in the photo album as if it were a rite of passage. Well I feel like I should get one tomorrow as I head out the door to head toward the next chapter in my life. Nerves are definately peaking right about now for me. I already lost two pounds in the bathroom today, and I don't know if it is done yet. My backpack has been packed for two days. My lunch is packed for tomorrow, along with Dave's. And the snack foods I bought for school days are all divided into baggies and packed into a drawer for quick packing if I happen to be running late one day. My desk is exactly the way I want it, and the positive quotes that I like the best are tagged in the book right next to my desk. I have a feeling I will be referring to them quite often. The first one is written on my bulletin board, it says

"If you don't make a total commitment to whatever you're doing, then you start looking to bail out the first time the boat starts leaking. It's tough enough getting that boat to shore with everyone rowing, let alone when a guy stands up and starts putting his life jacket on."- Lou Holz

If that isn't the truth. I haven't been this nervous about something for a long time. I think it is because this is something that I want really bad and knowing that it is something I have been working toward for the last five years. I see that light at the end of the tunnel, but I haven't even stepped into it yet. I pray for strength, patients and courage to finish this, not only for myself, but for those that I love who will be standing beside me and encouraging me during this journey.